31 Weeks Pregnant...
8 weeks to go...
{ wow }
This is me trying to kiss the baby...
Well, my posts have been few and far between this semester, and I am really regretting it. I know I will want to look back and remember these moments. I need to be more dedicated.
My pregnancy has flown by {too fast, I might add}. I'm not sure I'm ready to have this baby yet. I guess it's good I have 8 more weeks. The reality and nerves have finally hit me.
I'm having a baby. Surprise!
I have been pondering on what it means to be a mother and the responsibilities that accompany that great role. I have to admit, these pondering have often led to an increased heart rate, sweaty hands, and feelings of doubt.
I told my religion teacher that I was having a boy, and he happily proclaimed with his arms thrown in the air, "Ah! You're raising the Priesthood!" This comment was where the deep contemplations of mine began. Later that week, I was attending gospel doctrine. We had a wonderful lesson on the Priesthood and its accompanying blessings and responsibilities. I began to think about this sweet baby of mine. How am I to teach him the importance of the Priesthood and the great work that lies ahead of him as a righteous priesthood holder? How do I teach him that this responsibility goes beyond passing the sacrament? How do I teach him to trust in the Lord? How do I teach him to walk in truth? How do I teach him to love and serve those around him? How do I teach him to have clean hands and a pure heart?
I came across a scripture in Helaman 3:21. Mormon tells us that Helaman had two sons: Nephi and Lehi. He says, "And they began to grow up unto the Lord." This verse really struck me. How, as a parent, do you 'grow' your children up unto the Lord?
All of these questions have been swarming in my head searching for the needed answers. But, alas, they have not come. However, I have come to learn something very valuable. As a mother, I won't know all of the answers {despite the fact that I thought my parents knew everything}. All I need to know is this: the Lord loves my baby as much and more than I do. As I place my trust in Him, He will guide my thoughts and actions in a way that will best teach my precious little one. I know that being a wife and a mother are two of the great responsibilities I can have in this life; I know that the Lord knows this as well. He will guide me because I will be righteously seeking to do His work. I know there will be times of difficulty, but I know the Lord will be watching, guiding, and helping every step of the way;
{ As long as I am seeking, he will be leading }
There is so much I have learn on this journey... but bring it on. I know that with the Lord, Makay and I can do anything.
